My Roller Coaster Life

Have you ever felt that feeling that everything seems to go your way and then, BAM! Way out of left field something happens or changes that you can’t control. Take this whole virus experience for example. Everything was going great in my life, or so I thought. I signed up for my poetry class and for my writer’s conference. I also started this blog while putting together my sister’s bachelorette party too. I was so excited because I thought I was finally getting it together and finally realizing what I want to do with my life then, BAM! This virus hit and everything changed. If I didn’t already have two years of therapy under my belt, it still would be lost in the darkness. So deep down that it would be very hard to climb out of. Thankfully, being in therapy has helped me to cope with certain areas of my life so far. Some of these coping tools have been these: writing in my anxiety journal, taking deep breaths, exercising and just trying to take it day by day. I have also developed a new routine to keep a sense of normalcy as well. All of these tools have helped me to try to stay focused and calm. I understand why you feel the way you feel and why it’s so damn frustrating! But whether you like it or not, this is the new normal. Not just for me, but for everyone. We all must try to understand that this is hitting people differently all at the same time. The sooner we can all get through this together, the sooner we can go back to, what would be like, a new kind of normal for most of us. What will this new normal be like? Feel like? How will this change us as a person, co-worker, friend and family member? I don’t have an answer, but what I do know is to keep on practicing my worry tree. Whenever I am worried about something, I look to my worry tree on the fridge for help. I ask myself, “What am I worrying about?” I then ask, “Can I do something about it?” If the answer is no, then let your worry go and change your focus of attention. If the answer is yes, you will need an action plan to do something about it. Ask “What?” “When?” “How?” If you can do something now, then do the action, let your worry go and change your focus. If it’s something you can’t conquer now, then schedule it, let your worry go, and change your focus. Sounds so simple right? Believe me it takes some getting used to, but if you work at it, the better off you will be. We are all in this together. I am here for you even when you feel like you have no one. I’ve got you. We got this. You are enough. Until next time. Be well.